Markus Riva: “I thought to commit suicide”


Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством» The singer has shared with “StarHit” the details of the past. As it turned out, popular in the Network the actor has long suffered because of their own complexes and persecution by the environment. Markus Riva recalled a difficult period of his life and told what he should support the image of a charming guy.

      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»

      Latvian musician Markus Riva two years ago, was a finalist in the show “I Want to Meladze”. Not winning the main prize, 28-year-old foreigner still decided to conquer the Russian show business. Today Marcus for dozens of many beloved songs: “Pretty much”, “Takemedown”, “You’re in love”… In an interview with “StarHit” the Riva spoke about his difficult childhood, criticism of the mom and the loss of a loved one.


      Marcus, in the web you can find a lot of your photos, clips, recordings of speeches. But nowhere is there mention of your family…
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»I have a big family. Mother, stepfather and two brothers. None of the relatives involved in creativity except for me. Singer, actor, Director…for them it’s a frivolous profession. And joking: “All of you have a business, and I’m a little cuckoo”. The younger brother, Mathis, works as a basketball coach, preparing young athletes for competition in Latvia. As a senior, martinis, checks the food for quality… Mother’s name is INES, she is a teacher of the Latvian language and literature. By the way, the education I received in school, where he teaches mother, but she did not study. My mom is a good, but moderately strong. For example, from 3 to 6 class, I had difficulty to prepare for the lesson and get over it the lowest rating. As soon as it reached the news, she immediately told me: “I Have colleagues working in school! What will they think?”. So I had to try to prevent this. Blushed, of course, but now I understand that all this discipline was not in vain. —
      How did you and mom support communication? You’re constantly flying around the world – Russia, Europe…
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»My mom is an active user of social networks, especially Facebook. Some friends who accidentally fell to the page, immediately guessed that the woman on the main photo of my mom. Her entire wall littered repost my photos and songs. Yesterday, for example, when I flew from Tallinn to Riga, went straight to mom. Know that the week will be absent in his hometown. Talked to her about everything, and went…well, call her often, especially in the evenings. However, I always call first. She’s worried that I may be busy, and fall at the wrong time. By the way, soon she will be 59 years old. She was born the same year with singer Madonna. So when mom says, “I’m old!”, I always answer her: “Mom, you have me as Madonna!”
      Listening to you, and the impression that you’re the perfect son.
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»That’s not true, my mom and I also are conflicts and quarrels. Especially about my work. I have women of conservative views.. for Example, mom can scold you for that photographed half-naked. When released the calendar with its slightly spicy images, mom saw it, instantly got upset. Asks: “Well why are you doing this?”. And when I went on the show “Want to Meladze” it was generally opposed. Besides, Mama was not thrilled that I listened to Russian music. But everything returned to normal when the project ended. She realized that there is nothing wrong. Mommy actually started to download and listen to the songs of popular Russian performers. Of course, it may seem that mom is skeptical about my beginnings. But I know that it will be only the first time. Not even trying to convince her, you know that in the end she will still accept my position. —
      And there are moments for which you were embarrassed in front of mom?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»Most of all in childhood. For example, I always rehearsed the song in front of a mirror. Naturally, I thought that no one is home. Mom suddenly came into the room, and there is ridiculous I dance and sing into your hairbrush. At the time I thought I was doing something shameful. Then in 10-12 years I was afraid to speak to the family for the New Year. They wanted to hear the songs in my performance and I was embarrassed at least three years doing music. And when relatives are at my concerts, I was doubly difficult to speak in public. Worry that they do not like. —
      Have to listen to tips, advice?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»My mom is my main critic. Especially in a relationship. Once in 22 years, I introduced her to my girlfriend. She was older than me by 8 years, I did not feel this difference. But mom was very cautious about it, never accepted it. I think the fact that they did not know her.—
      See, mom are you ready to talk endlessly. But about his own father you don’t tell… Why?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»My dad was a sailor. His name was Alvis. He died of blood cancer when I was only 9 months. In his honor I even got a tattoo on his shoulder in the shape of an anchor. About him I only know by photos in albums and the stories of my grandmother.—
      Greatly influenced you in your life?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»I grew up totally independent person. Of course, it’s a shame that not met him in conscious age, but I feel his presence spiritually. For example, at the final audition show “Want to Meladze” on stage it seemed to me that he is somewhere nearby. Plus you feel dead grandmother, who always worried about me and my endeavors. I often think of the dear to me people. Especially when life is going bad. Believe, dad and grandma are moving me in the right direction where it would be better.
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»
      What about the difficult moments you say?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»Today, if you look at me, hardly think that as a child I was fat, wore glasses and had an overbite. I wasn’t a handsome man who was in love with girls. On the contrary, a loser, over which mocked. The neighborhood kids mocked, teased and called me names. At the time I was about 14 years old. Then I didn’t like to share with anyone, their emotions, and because of this was often depressed. Even wanted to commit suicide. In addition, we have in the family had financial difficulties. Thank God, this difficult period is over. By the way, I at one point realized I needed to celebrate with their problems himself. Now, as adults, want to do the Fund or to hold a charity evening to help children who are faced with similar stories.


      The family couldn’t get you out of the doldrums?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»Mom felt it hard to accept myself. She thought, I read teen magazines and be depressed fashionable. She doesn’t fully understand what’s happening to me… However, as the whole family. And I didn’t talk much because I was ashamed and uncomfortable to talk about this topic. I worked in a music school, but I didn’t have friends. I even cried because of this. But one day I said to myself: “don’t limp!” Music became my salvation. I set a goal to prove to all offenders, within 10 years, achieve success and fame. And make this all possible. I was lucky that this dream has been with me three years – the desire to write music, to perform on stage. By the way, I write a lot in Instagram: “Thanks for the motivation, You an example of how to work on yourself!” During the teenage depression I have not had a good example before my eyes. I couldn’t anyone to point a finger and say: “I Want to be like him!” After surviving a rough childhood, I understand that you need to accept yourself for who you are.—
      Your mother was able to meet his love after his father’s death… How did the stepfather?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»I did not protested her happiness! Stepfather very much helped my mom. For example, every morning he used to take me and my brothers to school, which was located a few dozen kilometers from home. In addition to classes, in the evenings I had a lot of concerts, and he found time to take me there. Even when he lacked money for gasoline, he found a way to get us brothers to school. —
      In one of your clips used old footage with Jeanne Friske. Did you know?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»No, Jeanne, released an unofficial video, which was directed by Alan Badoev. The idea appeared spontaneously, it was to create beautiful images to the audio. In the clip, and Polina Gagarina, and Vera Brezhnev, and the soloist of group “VIA Gra”… his directing career, Alan has shot more than 600 clips. And there was a recording with Joan. He had official permission to use the materials from the shoot. The clip was released a month before her death. After its release, native Friske has not written to us any charges. I knew Joan only on the songs. She for me has always been exemplary – both in creativity and in life. Unfortunately, I was unable to meet her.
      You have a very peculiar clips. For example, you can denude wholly or as an accessory use of live butterflies. Not afraid of condemnation and accusations of sexual orientation?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»Don’t view your clips any homosexual. First, they come up with talented Director Alan Badoev. He’s thinking outside the box. In his videos, fortunately, will never see a parody of the luxurious life: tough guys driving a Mercedes, drinking champagne flowing and shooting half-naked girls. Everything you see on the screens is creative plan. The same butterfly on my face. More say in the clips of Alan I improve the images. I have 30 years, I consider myself a serious and accomplished man who doesn’t care what other people think. Maybe in 20 years I would be experiencing like look at me and say, but not now! I think when I age, I will be pleased to see young and naked. The more I work on my body in the gym and not ashamed to show it.—
      Whom you can call stars of show business late at night and ask for help?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»I communicate well singer Anna Sedokova. Can ask her for advice, and I have. We can also criticize the creative work of each other. With Polina Gagarina on friendly terms with Vera Brezhneva, Svetlana Loboda, the girls from the group “VIA Gra”. When performers come to Riga for concerts, I make sure to visit them. Buy the biggest bunches of flowers and give them. By the way, with Faith we have a special relationship. Get to know her, I dreamed long ago. As she stands a meter away from me, when I start to hesitate and worry. Even sometimes blush. She is very nice and bright man. Next to Faith I feel a 13 year old boy.


      If you compare how you spoke in Russian two years ago and now, you can see the progress. What to do?
      Маркус Рива: «Я думал покончить жизнь самоубийством»Tutors I have. As a child, my grandmother watched the TV series “Simply Maria” in Russian with Latvian subtitles. Later, in sixth grade, learned to read and write in Russian. In Latvia I haven’t spoken with the Russians, and if necessary, with a bunch of errors. Now they are there, but I can talk faster and not so long to think about what to answer. Want to read the original works of Dostoevsky, Pushkin, Tolstoy, but the time is not enough. Now just thumb through magazine articles, study websites. By the way, it already takes half an hour, as before, but only for five minutes. In addition, every day I communicate with native speakers, thanks the more you practice your speech. Would like to become a leading TV programmes in Russia, where they will be able to build sentences without mistakes, to speak beautifully and to answer any tricky questions