“I don’t feel safe”: the revelation of the hero of “Let them talk”, decided to change their sex

«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол 22-year-old Ilyas Lalai told about the difficult path of becoming a woman. The young man admitted that he had to go against relatives and friends who did not support his desires.
«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол

Five years ago, suffering from obesity, Elias Lalaev appeared in Studio “Let speak”. The young man at the time weighed more than 150 pounds. After he began to cooperate with the doctor Gavrilov, he managed to drop extra weight. Now 22-year-old Ilyas is preparing for a sex change – he realized that he felt like a girl, but because he calls himself Lika a Mercedes and talks about himself in the feminine. Lalaev shoots outrageous video for “Instagram” and wants to make a career in show business. “StarHit” decided to find out what was the reason that the young man decided to become a woman.

Ilyas suffered from obesity since childhood. Despite the fact that in his family there are no people struggling with excess weight, it touched by this problem. During snack, he ate 10 sandwiches for lunch and dinner, took himself two portions. According to Laleva, this behavior is due to resentment of the loved ones.

“In our family everything was and how ordinary people – Breakfast, lunch, dinner. But for some reason parental affection was to feed the child, not to talk to him,” admitted Elias.
«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол

Also the young man told that in his childhood, when the teacher asked what he wanted to be, replied the girl. Parents found out about it and scolded the child. However, this further aggravated the situation and has become an obsession, which Lalaev decided with no one to share.

For some time the young man tried to initiate a romantic relationship with peers.

«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол“Was the girl who said I was fat, and she was not happy. I was 18 when we tried to sleep, but she was making fun of me. Later I learned that she has another young man and talked to me for a laugh. After this incident, I to girls are not that negative, but this situation left a mark,” shared Lalaev.
«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол

At age 19, Elias decided to go for their goals – he first came to Moscow. In the capital, he starred in the lead role for the short film. For four years Ilyas lives in two cities. A few years ago Lalaev dreamed of becoming a member of the reality show “Dom-2”. After the showed aired, in his native city he began to learn.

At 21, the young man began to drink hormones and call yourself Lika a Mercedes, although sometimes it seems Angelica Romanova.

“When my parents found out I decided to change the floor, they seem to be accepted, but society still pushes, and it is more important to them than me, – said Ilyas. I don’t want to build yourself an angel, Yes, I change gender. Very often, treat me negatively.”

«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол

However, the negative attitude of some people sometimes leads to unpleasant consequences. Elias admits that it’s frustrating to read negative comments, but he does not advertise his feelings. Not so long ago the hero of the program “Let them talk” even beat.

«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол“I was walking home, bothering me man, he was tipsy, he began to dismiss his hands. I’m just saying that tranny to scare. He was not far behind, I had to strike first, started the fight. The man touched me, I ran away. The police I have not addressed and parents are not told. I thought that I will expose the guilty, forced to wash off the makeup, cut my hair, and the victim will be it,” admitted the young man.
«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол

Soon Ilyas finally going to move to Moscow to pursue a career in show business. Despite the fact that Lalaev tried to enter the theater Institute, he did not believe that education is the only component of success in this field. The young man continues to gain popularity through social networks.

“My videos are very specific, adequacy there is no smell, one shocking. But it is a reflection of our people, who like to discuss the dirt and stench. I used to have more videos, even more scandalous. It seemed to me that the worse the better, – says Lalaev. – Many people are accusing me that everything I do is for PR and play on the theme that is causing the resonance. I was silent, and now I understand: I may like a buffoon, a freak. I can make money of your talent.”

Despite the fact that Ilyas has decided to accept himself as he is, he recently almost took his own life. Due to a sharp decline in weight, his skin sagged, and the operation had no money. However, parents managed to save a young man at a critical moment.

«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол“After that, go to a psychiatrist, but then mom said that will not pay for the sessions. When I beat, we came again to the specialist. After that, the mother said she was not opposed to changing the floor. But they are close to me still call Ilyas. Very soon I will leave and start an independent life. Will work on appearance – I want the chest to be done, remove the ribs to pump up the ass, to correct the person – I have asymmetry, because of this, a lot of complexes. At the moment I haven’t done any surgeries, no lip shook,” – said Lalai.
«Я не чувствую себя защищенной»: откровения героя «Пусть говорят», решившего сменить пол

Parents Lalaeva ready at first to support the son while he is settling in Moscow.

“They help financially. But I need not money, but words that I will succeed. I don’t feel safe with mom and dad and suffer from it, my heart hurts. I keep saying, “Talk to the parents, but many times tried and it just did not do! – says Ilyas. – I don’t think it’s normal when a man loves a man and a woman a woman, but I am! Let do not look at my appearance, and soul.”